rambling along

It's unbelievable but my boy is walking. already. It's fun and he loooves it.
Sometimes he walks through the room hands in the air laughing at himself and his ability to walk :) It's the cutest thing I have seen. like ever.
And he climbs up on the sofa, the stairs and my legs if I don't pick him up. He is so much fun to be around these days especially when he is making silly faces during dinner time or hugs me real tight.

He is a bit more balanced, because this boy (I still can't believe this) is sleeping through the night. People, I feel like a human again and could hug you all. People told me it would come and I didn't believe it. Guess they were right in that and I am so entirely grateful.
We had to go the Cry It Out route and we are still not at the finish line where he falls asleep without a peep. But we will get there. Soon.

 

Right now I am taking a class at the community college and I enjoy a few hours every Monday alone. He handles it well. He has fun with his grandparents in the meantime.
So, I am working hard for this class. Brainstorming ideas to decorate our house and trying to cook a healthy meal every day.

This far it all works out good. Some days I want throw a fit. Some days I want someone to care for me, just for one day. Some days I want someone to cook me something lovely, but in real life most of the time I have to do this all for me. I am taking humble steps at self-care and self-appreciation.
The pregnancy, birth and caring for a demanding baby and toddler on my own threw me way off my schedule in self-love. I try hard. I practice hard and some days it is just not enough.
And that's okay because I take every effort I can every single morning. Getting up when I rather lay in bed but I have people to care for, laundry to clean and fold, I have dogs to walk.

I have my hands full and I am trying.