4 months.

Sweet boy,

4 months is such a great age. You started laughing real loud last week and think I am the funniest person in the world. Which is great and makes me feel like a rock star.
I love your communication skills and it turns out you pretend to be shy at times, smiling at strangers and quickly hiding in mommy's arms. You are the best sweet boy.

You got the 2nd round of shots and had a fever for one and a half days. Seeing you miserable was quite a pain, but we are strong together. Cuddleing and breastfeeding helped you a lot.

You have been battleing a diaper rash for the last couple of days. We tried a lot already and finally had to switch from Microfiber diapes to all 100% cotton and wool covers. Also wiping your diaper area with a mixture of water and organic sun seed oil helped your skin a lot.
Mommy spent a lot of money this past month and slowly comes to the realization that we are lucky to cloth diaper since we already spent a lot of money on dipes and cannot imagine spending even more.

You started pushing yourself from tummy to your side today. You scoot a lot during tummy time. You are already so strong, yet sitting is still far away. You love to rock on someone's lap, bouncing yourself against the persons chest, which can be at times real hurtful for the one who is holding you.
You are getting so interested in our foods, always having your sweet little fingers on our plates while we eat.
You tasted already a few things, but you were unsure most times. I think it's still a bit early for you.
Drinking is even more interesting to you and occassionally you love to drink a sip from mommy's water glas.

You are starting to drool, like a crazy man. I think I felt already some tooth tips in your mouth, hoping they will not pop anytime soon. You are quite cranky these days. It feels like you are having a growth spurt.
Right now you are wearing 3-6 months clothes. We are lucky if they still fit in 4 weeks.
Looks like mommy needs to buy some new stuff again.

Sweet boy, please slow down for your mom. Things go by way too fast.
I am so happy to spend every single minute of my day with you. You are my sunshine.

Love,
mommy.

just write

I am really not sure what to write today, I know, insecurity overload.
It seems like I don't lead an interesting life.

Well, yesterday kinda was a big mess and this night too. David got his second round of vaccinations and had a high fever last night, screaming his head off. He fell asleep again 2 hours later at 6am, almost early enough to stay up and do things. I crawled back into my already cold bed again and slept for another 3 hours to wake up and find myself in a weird state where everything is just different. I am not used to the quietness that happens right now since we are up for the day usually by now. This would be the case if he wasn't around, I am so glad he is though. I am showered, which almost never happens before noon.

Things like a fever scare me. And it scares me to fall down somewhere with baby on my arm. There are those kind of irrational fears that kind of drive me bonkers these days. It is just that I fear that this life I have now will slip out of my fingers in a moment, leaving me with nothing. I can not say it will not happen.

It just tells me to be grateful for every single minute with my baby, my family and my life (which is still new in a way I don't find words for).

*linking up with just write

Love,
Suki

silence.

I haven't been here for so long, so I sit here stare at the blank page and really have not much to say.
It's been hectic, it's been wonderful. The time away from social media, though I miss you friends.
I've been away for a week with David. We stayed at my grandma's house, since she broke her arm 2 weeks ago and needed a little help around the house. Off we went, but I am glad to be home again. Home, where I belong.
After bringing David into this world, I am being such a homebody. I just love to be home.
And have hangout-days in my pj's. Together with my best man.

David is growing up so quickly and already scoots on his belly around in his playpen. He is such a strong boy, close to sitting. He is so interested at activities at the dinner table, curious to see where drinks and food goes. He loves to be wiggled. Loves to talk and interact with us.

 

Photography has taken a backseat, but I am surely enjoying my iPhone. Instagram is my new best friend.

So, sorry fancy camera for neglecting you. I still have pictures to edit from almost a month ago. Yes, it is that bad. All I do is feeding the baby, loving him, keeping him happy. And what a happy baby he is indeed. I couldn't have wished for more.

I'd love to be here more often and I try to post more from what we do. 

Whenever you like to hear from us, just email me. Maybe I'll find time for that. But I suppose there will always be times for that later, when is grown up and off on his own adventures. Until then I enjoy his snugglyness and his sweet baby smell that will soon fade.

Hope you are all well and happy.

Love,

Suki

while the baby naps.

Hello,

I catch my breath in nap times, when baby is sleeping peacefully in his own room. Yes, I transitioned him with his 3 month birthday into his own room, giving me some sacred reading time in bed again and him a more peaceful sleep. David is now 3 months, 8 days old.
How on earth did that happen?!

He drools already like a big guy, shoving fingers (his own and people who are holding him) and fists into his mouth to bite on, nothing else enters his mouth. He is still not taking a pacifier, but uses his fist to soothe himself before falling asleep.
He is totally cuddle and cute, talking a ton (!). It is really super sweet when he is lieing in my arms, talking bearly hearable only with mom. It's the cutest in the world. He also gets picky of whom is carrying him while meeting the family. Favourites are mom, dad and grandma (not neccessarily in that order) of course. And this is the best. Being rewarded like that for all the hard work we do. I really love this age because of the responsiveness. I love to make him laugh. I love that he wants to engage by himself.
I am slowly starting to use baby signs with David. Let's see how this will go.

He still loves bathtime. He recently found out how to move his upper body and while he is being held he likes to rock back and forth. David likes to watch us eat food, but is not interested yet to eat any food of his own. He's still a bit too little too. We are getting on beautifully, slowly rocking into a new routine.

I now have a degree and nothing I have ever looked more forward to than ending this apprenticeship. My biggest dream came true and now I am officially a nurse. The time working was very hard. I am so grateful for support from family that made this possible for me and I knew David is in the best care he can have. Yet I feel I missed so much from the four weeks we were apart for 10 hours a day. I so enjoy nursing him full-time again. Without pumping at work. The pump and I, we had a love/hate relationship and on some days it was just a pain. I spare you details but I can say now I am so glad it's over.

I could finish a few knitting projects too.

Let me present the famous fish hat, I made for David's daddy, it took 3 months having a baby in between and all.
I did two other infant baby hats for David and his friend Alexander. The one for Alex is waiting to be mailed.

Right now I am working on a sleepsack for David since he has outgrown all his others. And I think a woollie sleepsack is perfect for the warmer days that about to come. Keeps him nice and warm during cold nights too, with very nothing or a light onsie underneath.
For that I ordered myself a big chunk of Quince and Co Yarn. It is so beautiful to work with and I imagine it is very comfortably to wear too.


Apart from that everything is still pretty much the same. :)
How are you doing?

Love,
Suki